Sunday, July 31, 2011

Before I sleep, I want to blog this one out.

People always lie. That was something that I saw on One Tree Hill, it's one of Peyton's drawings. I drew a version of mine and i'll post it on the Doodles Shmoodles page.

I feel that a lot of people lying to me. It made me feel gullible. Am I? Do I easily believe people? Is that how I am? I guess I put my trust on the wrong people, but if that's the case, my family don't deserve my trus because they lie to me? Everyday people lieto me, and I think I'm on the brink of my trust sanity.

Anyway, I heard this song by The Sounds,  and I liked the lyrics, so I'm going to post it here.

No one sleeps when I'm Awake

I've seen people losing all of their faith
before they knew what they were looking for
I swore I'd never ever do it again
till this day

Words are all I have to give to you
you never seem to see it my way
Standing in the shadows I hear
people say

I've got confessions to make
listen up
no one sleeps when I'm awake

The dreams I dream
the song I sing for you
they're coming from my heart
is my message getting through?
You know it hurts so bad
just like i knew that it would
but I'd do it again
do it again if I could
do it again if I could.

I don't think you know what it's like
you should be careful what you're wishing for
and try to set your ego aside
you will find
a false piece of mind
you fall behind
and everybody's getting tired of you
standing in the shadows i hear
people say

I've got confessions to make
listen up
no one sleeps when i'm awake

The dreams I dream
the song I sing for you
and they're coming from my heart
is my message getting through?
You know it hurts so bad
just like i knew that it would
but I'd do it again
do it again if I could

Hey heeey heeey
i want you to know (know know know...)
hey hey heeeeeeeeeeeeey heeeeeeey

Cause the dreams that i dream
and the songs that i sing
when I lost myself and a different meaning
Shot down and post, imagine although it's
hundreds of dreams
Taking place around you

It hurts so bad
just like I knew that it would
but I'd do it again, I'd do it again if i could.
but I'd do it again, I'd do it again if I could.

I'd do it again
I'd do it again
I'd do it again
I'd do it again if I could!

Let the song speak for itself. Sleep well and good night.

July Quotes

July 31,2011

The dreams I dream
the song I sing for you
they're coming from my heart
is my message getting through?
You know it hurts so bad
just like i knew that it would
but I'd do it again
do it again if I could
do it again if I could.

I don't think you know what it's like
you should be careful what you're wishing for
and try to set your ego aside
you will find
a false piece of mind
you fall behind
and everybody's getting tired of you
standing in the shadows i hear
people say

~No one sleeps when I'm awake, The Sounds

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July 29,2011

"Time is very slow for those who wait
Very fast for those who are scared
very long for those who lament
Very short for those who celebrate
But for those who love time is eternal"
— William Shakespeare

"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever"
— Nicholas Sparks

"Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it."
— Mitch Albom

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

July 27,2011

"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you."
— Maya Angelou

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
— Maya Angelou

"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain."
— Maya Angelou

"Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness."
— Maya Angelou

"Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent"
— Victor Hugo

"You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody."
— Maya Angelou

"I do not trust people who don't love themselves and yet tell me, 'I love you.' There is an African saying which is: Be careful when a naked person offers you a shirt."
— Maya Angelou

"You may shoot me with your words, you may cut me with your eyes, you may kill me with your hatefulness, but still, like air, I'll rise!"
— Maya Angelou

"You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it. "

— Maya Angelou

"Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope."

— Maya Angelou

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Pity not the illiterate
for they can't read
pity those whose hearts
cannot understand nor speak.
Pity not those who grieve or mourn,
pity those who cannot move on.
Pity not the scarred ones
for they have faced strife,
pity those who scratch their wounds
for they continue to resent life.

Another one

Oh yes, you guessed it right. Another rant page for me. What do I do? This keeps me sane. I can't tell this  to the person 'cause I'd end up smiling and the essence would be lost.

There are times when you are just browsing your FB and you see a status message or just a comment that would make your night crash. It happened to me, just now. Strange for me to be too affected when it's been months since I failed my thesis. It hurts like hell to see words like "graduate", "congratulations" "professional", "batch 2011" . I cringe inwardly but I've shrugged it off with a smile, yes, ALWAYS, with a smile, but they don't know how much it hurts. I've been optimistic for most of my years, but I'm getting tired.

I've always thought that I would die young. Well, I wish that I'd die young. No worries of old age, less people you'll see leave, lesser people who'll miss you. I sound like a coward, don't I? I don't care if I do, because it's true. I'm a coward. I'm afraid. I am clueless. I don't know where should I look for direction. I am where I don't want to be.


Thursday, July 21, 2011

bizarre wednesday

I think that this is blog worthy that's why I'm writing it down. Yesterday, I have plans to go to MOA which i fulfilled only by different means. My Ae fetched my cousin and me, so instead of me going ALONE, I am with them. I was just going to check if I could reserve tickets for saturday because I have a movie date with my best friend. Guess what will we be watching? What else? Deathly Hallows part 2! We checked if there were available tickets for saturday, but the only ones there was for IMAX, which was 450 bucks. So, no deal. I asked for the movie schedule, they still don't know. So no movie tickets for me, we'll just buy tickets on sat.*shrugs*
The real story here was the people I met. I've seen 4 acquaintances... or I think it was 5... Well, let's enumerate. First, we were going to the department store and I saw a high school friend, a year higher than me. We said our hi's and hello's then we're off to do our business. When we were off to buy dinner, I saw 2 church friends, so that's three people already. When we were seated, about to order our meal, I saw 2 church mates again, who was my other cousin's friend too because they work together. When we were waiting for our dinner, another high school mate popped, she was going to eat dinner with her, uh, boyfriend, who was seated on the table behind us. So I guess that makes 6 acquaintances in one day. I don't know that's just weird. Small world, huh?

Oh and I just noticed that I blogged more on July than any of the months I have been here on blogspot. I wonder why. :P

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Be mine

Be mine

The moon was shining
and the stars shimmering
His face was glowing and amazing.

He asked if I'm okay
I said "I'm fine"
The he asked "is it okay
if you could be mine?

The night went on
his hand holding mine
After a while he said
"Your eyes looks divine"
A smile crept upon my face
I spke "you're crazy"
He replie,"I can't define the
feeling I have inside"
Again, he asked, "is it okay
if you could be mine?"

I left the question hanging
and suggested "we should be dancing"
He took my hand and helped me stand
the next thing i knew he was staring

my stomach churned
my heart beat fast
i looked up at him
saying yes at last.

***Author's note: Again, this poem was written in 2005, so please forgive my crappy grammar. I copied this they way I wrote it. This is making me cringe. LMAO! posted this for the sake of my "poem friends", to give you a bit or my background in poetry writing. LOL!

Childhood Sweetheart

Childhood Sweetheart

We've been friends for so long
I thought I've knwn you all along
I thought you were never wrong
Now you're like an unfinished song

All the laughter, all the sorrows
Things that we've shared
Once a story of knight and paramour
With their love so bare

Why, childhood sweetheart, why?
Memories are neglected and thrown
Then you'll leave with no goodbye
And end our story unknown.

***Author's Note: While I was in the shower earlier I thought of my little poem/sketch notebook way back when I was in highschool. I ransacked my drawers and found it, so here I am posting it for the sake of my "poem friends" hehe. This was written on January 15, 2005. 

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Deathly Hallows 2 review

I have said this before, “I feel empty.”  This post was due the night before but I can't complete it because I am still mourning for the characters that died. 

For a Harry Potter fan, we all know how this was going to end. Without further ado, let’s start with the effects. As expected from a high-budgeted film and an experienced one, the computer graphics was superb. Hands down to the animators and visual designers, you’ve done a fantastical job. Once again, we were transported, or should I say “apparated”, to the glorious world of Harry Potter. Costume designers were awesome. Every dress, fabric and fiber made fitted like a glove to each of the characters, it made the movie more magical and at the same time grungy. The Goblin prosthetics was amazing. Sound effects were as expected, dramatic and melancholic. There were times when I felt like the scene was too silent, but I guess the director wanted us to savor the scene without the help of the music.

To be honest, I want to watch it again for the fear of missing some details that I need to write, I’m still in a sad trance, but I will watch it again next week so… I’ll just post again. Anyway, let's discuss the scenes.For me, every moment must not be missed. From the simple breathing of the goblins to the fiery breath of the dragon, everything was at its right place. I noticed that a lot of scenes from the book were missing, but as I have learned from several movie adaptations, if you expect the movie to be as good as the book then you will be disappointed. I believe that this movie was done with severe care, staying true to Jk Rowling's masterpiece as well as the art of movie making. This was not an easy feat, for Harry Potter has collected millions of fans all over the world, each of them wanting to be pleased. 

***Spoiler starts here highlight if you want to read*** 

In the previous Harry Potter movie, they opened with a heart-breaking scene, Hermione obliviating the memories of her parents, knowing the danger she's going to face. Now, the movie opened with a quiet but grave tone. Then the scene in Hogwarts, Snape as the headmaster. If you haven't read the book you would loathe Snape in the movie. I am truly awed at Alan Rickman's acting ability, the villainous side of Snape is still seen so is his vulnerability, the ache in his eyes as he duels with Professor Mcgonagall. His duel with Mcgonagall was radical (and short). I applaud his performance, he should win an Emmy or an Academy Award. The tear in his left eye when he died.. that was heart wrenching.. His death will be the most remembered death in the series and it was duly justified for his character was magnificently flawed but tragically beautiful. 

The Battle of Hogwarts was a beautiful mess. *sigh* I might start crying now, as I remember who fought in it. The bodies that lay unmoving, slain unmercifully by the fellow wizards and witches with different opinions about power and magic. I will never forget the bodies of Remus, Tonks, and... our beloved Fred. When I saw the cluster of Weasleys I was bawling because I knew who died. *sniff*

Another heart-breaking scene would be Snape's and Dumbledore's conversation. The word "Always" will have a different meaning now. We'll always remember the person who said it and to whom it was addressed. Snape's silent passion was so bittersweet that it made the readers love him in his last moments in the book as well as in the big screen.  

Now, on to our hero, Harry Potter... his momentous walk toward the creature who made his life a living hell. This dramatic scene was given to us as softly as the actors can. It was a resigned yet powerful moment. I just wished that Daniel Radcliffe could have brought more, but no matter, he still performed well.  

Oh, now I remember... Neville! Kudos to Neville Longbottom for beheading that gruesome snake, Nagini! And to Ginny, For shouting at Voldemort. Haha. I must applaud the Brits who made this movie as British as they can. It was truly awesome to have walked with Harry in the past 10 years... I believe that this will only be the start of many of the decades to come. Many more years of patronizing Harry Potter. This book deserves every bit of praise... it was bound to be a classic.

This should have been longer but I think i forgot the other things that I was going to say or put so, i'll just them in the next blog. Yes, there will be another Harry Potter review because I'm going to watch it again. I will be writing a tribute too.. so yeah, wait for it.    

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

poems from pablo neruda

I was looking for quotes from Wuthering Heights, well, actually, I was craving for Heathcliff's passionate quotable quotes.  hmm... I think I'll compile my favorite quotes from Heathcliff in another post. So, anyway, I stumble upon Paolo Neruda's works and here they are. 

"Take bread away from me, if you wish, 
take air away, but 
do not take from me your laughter. 

Do not take away the rose, 
the lance flower that you pluck, 
the water that suddenly 
bursts forth in joy, 
the sudden wave 
of silver born in you. 

My struggle is harsh and I come back 
with eyes tired 
at times from having seen 
the unchanging earth, 
but when your laughter enters 
it rises to the sky seeking me 
and it opens for me all 
the doors of life. 

My love, in the darkest 
hour your laughter 
opens, and if suddenly 
you see my blood staining 
the stones of the street, 
laugh, because your laughter 
will be for my hands 
like a fresh sword. 

Next to the sea in the autumn, 
your laughter must raise 
its foamy cascade, 
and in the spring, love, 
I want your laughter like 
the flower I was waiting for, 
the blue flower, the rose 
of my echoing country. 

Laugh at the night, 
at the day, at the moon, 
laugh at the twisted 
streets of the island, 
laugh at this clumsy 
fool who loves you, 
but when I open 
my eyes and close them, 
when my steps go, 
when my steps return, 
deny me bread, air, 
light, spring, 
but never your laughter. " 
 Pablo Neruda

I do not love you as if you were a salt rose, or topaz
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
So I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Deleted scenes in the Harry Potter Movies

I am ashamed to tell you that I only found this recently... *hangs head in shame* The only deleted scene i know of is the one in Harry's Potions class 'cause that's the one I have on VHS. Yes, you saw that right, VHS. To make up for my lack of HP deleted scenes knowledge, I will put as much links and youtube videos here.
All the videos posted  are not mine they are from their respective sites and owners.

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone Deleted Scene 1
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone Deleted Scene 2
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone Deleted Scene 3
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone Deleted Scene 4
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone Deleted Scene 5
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone : Neville

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Deleted Scenes
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets Deleted Scenes Part 2

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire Deleted Scenes

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Deleted Scenes
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix : Hilarious Trelawney Scene
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix : Neville part
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix : Common Room
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix : Umbridge Trelawney Scene
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix : Umbridge in the Forbidden Forest
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Harry in Dumbledore's Office

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

That's all i can gather for now. I'll edit this when I see others, or you could suggest me some videos. thanks! :D

I am uber excited for DHpart 2 but I'm also sad 'cause its the last one. WAaaah! giddy giddy me!



It is not fair
that you light up when you see me.
It is not fair
that you and I cannot be.
It is not fair
to just shrug and say
I'm sorry but let's be friends anyway.
It is not fair
for you to let me wait.
It is not fair
Don't turn my love into hate.

Saturday, July 9, 2011


I hear a whisper
calling out your name
With a piercing whimper
It was battling shame

Now the heart bleeds
It was barely breathing
You are what it needs
Can't you hear it crying?

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Ang pana

Ang Pana

Nuong unang panahon
Ang iyong tanging silbi
Magpalago ng sibilisasyon
Pumatay ng lahi.

Ngayong taon
Hindi ako nagkamali
Pumupuksa ka parin
Nang walang pasintabi

Bakit ikaw ang ginamit
Ni kupidong maliit
Isang kasa, isang pihit
Buhay ay nagbagong pilit

Puso ay humandusay
Naglakad ng walang gabay
Tumingala sa langit
Dahil sa nangyaring mapait

Mabilis na pagtarak
Sa pusong warak
Ng panang Ligaw
Ang ngalan ay "ikaw".

** my attempt on a tagalog poem.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

9 days till HPDH2

It's tradition for my blog to show at least a clip or a trailer of a Harry Potter movie before it releases, so here are a few of them.

Harry Potter DH2 Clip... in the vault.

Harry Potter Trailers:

"Harry Potter in One Word"

Behind the scenes... The Featurette...

The Last day of Harry Potter.. *sobs*

I couldn't let this end with a sad note.. so here is a video we all know and, i don't know, loved? heheh. :P

Enjoy!!! :D

Monday, July 4, 2011



You'd think that the stars seemed few,
For most of my wishes didn't come true.
A lone star gave me a chance to see,
A proof that love is not just a story.

Why did the star find me, I did not know.
I think it's time, I think I'm ready to show.
This heart is capable of heartaches and sadness,
But it is best for laughter, tenderness and fondness.

Unexpected, it started that way.
Unbelievable, I've never felt this way.
The stability, the beauty each time you smile.
The melody my heart sings, each time I call you "mine".

Oh Star, be my constant companion,
Be with me, my fears abandoned.
Most of all, dearest star, be my friend,
Whatever happens, I'll keep you till the end.

** When my best friend saw my previous poem, she told me to write a poem for her "status" in love, so here is my attempt. This poem may not reflect my best friend's love situation, it has a life of its own. It is merely inspired by her.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

The windowsill

The windowsill

Lay beside me,
Take comfort.
Abandon reality,
I am your fort.

In your world,
I take refuge.
In your enthusiasm,
Dreams are forged.

Stand beside me,
Let us cry.
"We'll fight this battle,
Let them try."

Hold my hand,
Sing with me.
Find the others,
Raze an effigy.

Still we return,
Drinking forlorn,
To burning shadows,
We weep, we mourn.

Lay beside me, 
Heave a sigh.
Wake from your reverie,
Time left us, by and by.

I feel like jimmy edwards in one tree hill.

I want to hammer my heart
and stop it with a gun,
hoping to tear the pain away

I am so tired, so tired of hoping.
Exhausted, I am one step from falling apart.
Someone asked me if I wanted to live longer,
I answered no.
Who would want to live in this trash bin?

The humans think that the animals are dirty.
NO, we are the dirtiest creatures that God created.

I"m tired of arguing with my thoughts.
I now rest and wish for endless slumber.

crappy poem. crap my life. damn.

Friday, July 1, 2011


I dare not look,
I dare not feel.
I scald alone,
I live in fear.

I could not trust,
I could not lie.
I do what I must,
Lest I will die.

I suffer alone,
I hide my tears.
I am scorched,
I flinch at my sear.

No solace,
I live in fear.
I am lost,
You cannot hear.

** Trying my hand, yet again, at poetry.