Hello blogger, I think I've been happy for the past couple of months because I haven't blogged... that means I don't need an outlet yet. I'm usually sad when I blog.
Anyway, 2020 has been a really tough year for the world, yet I am still thankful. 2020 made me cherish my health more as well as my family relationships... but it has been hard. Being cooped up for months also took toll on our mental health, but God granted us patience to wait things out and to still be able to live with each other.
I am immensely grateful that I have found love during quarantine. <3
Yes, a lot has happened, and yet, here we are. Some maybe thriving, but most of us just surviving. It is still a wonder to be alive.
But here I am, feeling this feeling again. I have this feeling that I want to die young. I don't want to live in this cruel world. It's just so tiring. Why do people want to live in this world when we have heaven? I know I'm selfish in saying that I want to go to heaven so that there will be no more pain for me fully knowing that I am here on earth to share the gospel.
This feeling is frustrating and I know that it will pass. I just need to acknowledge it and then let it go. God help me.
